i dont really know what to expect. ive failed half my classes this quaterr and im going to be grounded obviously. my dads probably going to shave my head again. i wont be able to just go out and hang with my friends anymore. im likely going to be grounded from my computer too, so that means even less of me. ive got in trouble a couple times (or at least been blamed for it) for things i didnt do or shouldent be in trouble for also.
there's really know one i like anymore at school, even though ive been told a few people like me, i dont really want them. i guess im still not over cassidy. i dont know. no one ive ever met can compare to her at all. i know that shes moved on (literally...) but its been almost 2 months now and i still feel exactly the same. i just feel like im going in no direction and i really have no purpose to anyone. my future is hopeless and im losing friends because of the way i seem to pull everyone down with me when im sad and then i shut them out when im tired of them. i wonder why theres really no one that i can trust. i cant trust my family. im learning that i cant trust my best friends either. i guess i can just turn to my internet buddies when im stressed.

maybe ill just stop liking girls or something. hooray for half gays.

wow. this whole thing just was me complaining again.